To you who subscribed to or followed my blog this year, thank you.
To you who have stumbled across it while looking for something else, thank you.
To you who have commented here, emailed me, and been kind to me this year, a BIG thank you. I still read your blogs sometimes, but I'm back to being a lurker for the time being.
I've struggled with updating this blog since being pregnant with my fourth child (this gorgeous, surprise, and miracle of a child) and not just because of lack of time and competing priorities.
I've also had a crisis of sorts which has stopped me writing for pleasure, not only on this blog, but the other stuff I've always hoped to write as well. I've been struggling with the questions of:
What am I choosing to do with my time and why?
Why do I not do many of the things (good things, noble things, loving things) I would really like to do?
How am I to best express myself, my aspirations, my struggles, in line with my truest and deepest desires? Is it through writing, or simply living the best possible life I can, or both? If both, how do I manage that?
What's holding me back in life? What is drawing me forward?
I actually am grateful for this crisis. I reached mid-life this year so maybe that's what sparked it. Or maybe it's just that I'm in a very demanding season of life and I have to learn to roll with it.
But I'd like to think it means something fresh and new and wonderful is on the way. A new realisation, new appreciation, or new way of being in this amazing world of ours.
I wish you a blessed, forever fresh and new way of looking at things too, as we begin to travel a brand new year.
I am just glad you are back. The other day i was going through my old posts and there i read your comment. the one where we talked about your Aussie moms meet with Brenda and the group. I am hoping that your baby is hale and hearty. Happy Thanksgiving to You. xoxo
ReplyDeleteThey are good questions to ponder, and are quite valuable in reassessing where you're at. I've been asking similar questions of myself the last few months.
ReplyDeleteAll the best as you find the answers and some direction.
Hi Ratz, thank you. The baby is extremely hale and hearty and a real sweety as well.
ReplyDeleteThanks too, Aspiring Mum. The questions are good ones, but the answers are much better aren't they! I think I'm impatient always wanting all the answers to my questions right NOW! But that's not the way it seems to go....
I think a new baby has a way of interupting our lives and making us more circumspective.
ReplyDeleteThis year has been a hard year for me to write regularly on my blog and read other peoples blogs. I feel like I have lost a lot of friends since I don't know much about what is happening in other bloggers lives.
I think it doesn't matter how much we serve others or do what we want, there is always going to be some kind of nagging feeling that we are not doing what we are meant to be doing. That feeling is to get us to seek God more imo.
I am glad you are still blogging Marilyn. I will be back commenting more next year I hope when our baby is just a little bit bigger.
I struggle with some of the same questions ...why do I bother to write/comment on a blog when there are so many more important things to do (like play with my children or hosuework).
ReplyDeleteFor the most part it is about connecting with my community and a lack of motivation to move off my seat!
May you and your family have a wonderful and blessed Christmas too...with all the joy and laughter your hearts can contain!
[ps I stole this ;) ]